Till I Collapse

I was looking at old photos of when I was in middle and high school and I can see myself and how much I have grown since then. It have been hard and had its ups and downs but I know I have learned alot and wouldn;t be the stronger person I have become.  And I may have lost some people in my life since then but I know it only makes me stronger.

I have been through alot in my life with my best friend/grandmother losing her battle to cancer in 98, to my aunt losing her battle to MS in 09. It seems like I have been on the ups and downs of life in the past 15 years. When my grandmother passed away it was super hard to handle anything in my life. I lost a lot of weight and started binge eating and developed Bilema. I never really told anyone until recently but I think my brother had an idea of what I was doing.  As in this picture, I was skin and bones at that point as it was 6 months after Mom-Mom had passed on.

And I was able to get through that so what in which I still am missing her so much, but then when my aunt and name shake lost her battle to MS, I kind of lost it. I went back to eating and purging but this time I think it did quite the opposite and I gained a lot of weight such as the picture here shows. But I think since finding Herbalife I have lost over 36.5 inches and 5lbs. I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and knowing that I will be able to dance again.  and since beginning this blog, I can start to see a difference of what my body is doing. I'm shrinking :).

Thanks again for reading and encourging me to go on this journey!! :)

Milestones

Hey everyone I knew its been a few since I posted last but I have been busy with work and trying to figure things out with my career. As well as trying to get a handle on my life in general. I now am trying to get organized and work on studying and setting a date to take the Praxis I test for graduate school. I have a few dreams that I want to achieve in the next few years. The first is to get my masters in Autism Spectrum teaching. The second is I want to help as many people as I can with overall wellness and maybe open up a nutrition store.

Tonight I brought three people in to the new weight loss challenge that I and Tony are in. I am so proud of all of them for wanting to change their wellness!! Even some may have been reluctant to come they made the leap and I and as well as them are glad they did so.

In the form of progress I have lost 5lbs and 36.5 inches since Sept/October. Here are some more progress Photos. The left side are the new ones and the right is the older ones.

 

Staying Focused

I have been thinking about this new found confidence that I have about myself, and I truly love it. I weighed in at the weight loss challenge last night to find out that I lost 8.5 more inches since I started in the beginning of last month. This brings my total inches lost to 36.5. I can't believe it, I have tried ever since my junior year in high school to lose weight but to no avail.

 I also had a bad habit of purging after eating ever since I was 12 and my best friend and grandmother passed away. I wasn't ever diagnosed with anything since I really never told anyone about it until recently. But over time that developed issues with my digestive system. However, it seems that since on Herbalife I have been only getting better and less symptoms as I continue on my journey. I have also learned to channel my stress in different routes then eating.

With that being said, I have watched the show Dance Moms ever since it came on TV  three years ago. Most who have known me for a long time, know I was a dancer for 10 years, until I quit to focus on my school work and college. And since being away from it for so long, I miss it terribly and as I sit there and watch I can't help but want to do it again. However, I know at this moment I can't physically do what I use to. Yet, I am excited about this weight loss and gives me even more reason to lose weight and achieve my goal weight. I want to be able to dance again, and through this journey I will keep this dream in arms reach.

I have until September to get ready for the next year of dance at a friend's dance studio in which I would love to do Ballet and Jazz again. So I will strive to do my best and make this dream a reality.

New Year New Me!!!

Here it is the first day of the new year, 2013. I have to say that 2012 had it's ups and downs, but overall a good year. But I feel that I will make this an awesome year!! I have a wonderful boyfriend, family, and job. I have decided to achieve my dreams and work with children who have autism. I have come a long way through the past few years which my decision in careers. I have toyed with this idea of working with autistic chidlren and I have decided that its what will make me happy. And this year I am dedicating to making myself happy. I have put it off for way too long and it is time for me to grow into the person I want to be. I have put this into works when I decided to become part of the Herbalife family and I have lost over 28 inches from head to toe and I intend to achieve a lot more. I am down about 5lbs and want to get down 70lbs. This is my before photos I took of myself before starting my 24fit weight loss challenge!

I am hoping this will change a little each week. Thanks for all the support I have had through out the last few months. Everyone has been super supportive toward reaching my goals. Even when I may have not known what I wanted myself. Its awesome to know I have so many to depend on. :) This is it for this week but stay tuned for each week.