The Why...

Today I went and got my wellness eval, at Perry Hall Nutrition and I never felt so at home, as I did there. Vern took me under his wing explaining everything to me, and seeing what my goal is. I told him that I would love to get down to a comfortable weight where I may not have to take the meds I currently am taking. I should sit here and list them, but its a huge list. I found that I have about 50-80lbs that I would like to lose.

I am currently at 229.2 and I would like to be somewhere in the vicinity of 150. I also started drinking the aloe, tea, and shakes today and I love all of them. I found it gives much more energy then a cup of Starbucks. So that will be taking the place of my breakfast and probably dinner. But I have felt really good today. I am hoping this will still be the case, which I think it will even down the line.

But tonight I was able to fortunate enough to participate in the MEGA Weight Loss Challenge, where I am on Team Green- or Team Tracy!!! But Vern was talking to us about the reason why we are doing this, and want to loss the weight. Well this is kind of difficult to think of just one thing that comes to mind. I have been thinking of several between then and now. But prob the most important reason why is because I want to do this for myself. I have been told time and time again to take care of me, and obviously at 229lbs I definitely haven't listen to them. For years, I have always taken others around me more serious then I did myself, and thought oh well Ill take of myself tomorrow, next week, next month etc. I think with all the surgeries I maybe thought in the back of my mind that I had enough then that everyone else is more important. But not true, if I do not take care of myself, how can I take care of others! Another why would be there are things in life that I would love to do but I just don't feel good, or feel like it. Such things as shop in the stores I love without feeling like a fatty, cause I can't fit into it. I would also love to go back and do dance, all I do now even remotely related to it is watch Dance Moms. And dance was a huge part of my life for 10 years! I would also just love to go out and have fun, not that I don't now but I would love to go out dancing, play pool etc. Lastly, I would absolutely love to feel healthy, just feel good about myself and what I want to do without second guessing it.

Here is to making a new chapter in the life of Mary!!! I hope everyone can take part in it.

Here is a photo of me now... I will continue to post pics of my progress.

<3 Mary <3